nasty.

being nasty is innate.
you do nasty stuff to people when people are nasty to you.
simple as that.


school started.
gonna have to work doubly hard to earn good grades so i can grad by the end of the year.
cant wait for bear to finish up with her last paper on thurs! havent spoke or played mj with her for a longlong time!
cant wait for zz to be back from tw.
cant wait.
(:

so dead.

this place is so dead.
sigh.
i've got an urge to switch to livejournal but heres where all my memories stay.
after struggling for a long time, i've decided that im gonna just stay with blogspot!
tells alot about how much im unwilling to part with my memories.

been pretty confused with courses im going to enrol in for summer but all's sorted out.
thanks jae, eunice, and waisiang for the advices.
(:

wanted to rant about a particular issue that im very unhappy about but nvm, forget it.

going out for a breather.


P.S. zz come back from taiwan asap! loads of stuff i wanna talk to you about! (:

love.

dad and mom came into my mind last night before i went to bed.
they are the best parents anyone would ask for.
they are the greatest.
i see them as role models and i want to be like them when i become a parent.


mom and dad,
i appreciate everything that you two have done for me.
i really do.

i thank you for showing me what love is.
i thank you for understanding me and talking to me as though we are of equal status.
i thank you for comforting me when i needed care.
i thank you for allowing me to vent my frustrations on you.
i thank you for letting me go, but leaving the doors open for me if i ever need to come back.
i thank you for hugging me tightly when i break down.

i love you, dad and mom.

memories.

saw some photos tt made me cringed.
i miss everyone.
i miss me.

i...

where i belong...

the air is still,
so still i can hear my heart beating.
the place is dead,
so dead i can only feel myself alive, my own presence.
the sky is dark,
so dark that i cannot see my own fingers.


where's the warmth?
where's the laughter?
where's the love?
where's the fun?


there i lie,
facing the walls, pondering.
about life.
about my life.


i dont feel good.
i dont feel well.
i turned around and reached out to touch your arms.
i needed to be comforted, i needed to share, i needed assurance, i needed concern, i needed love.


and i stopped.
i stopped.


because i.....




why?

who do i turn to?

round and round.

sometimes,
you must move along slowly to realize that life is filled with pleasures and surprises.
its kinda hard for us to move along slowly in this advanced and busy world now but still,
i spent yesterday just like that.

something extraordinary happened.
actually 2.
no, 3 extraordinary things happened.

very very glad.
kinda tired but i dont want to waste my time sleeping.
(:
and i've yet to eat my smoked salmon sandwich!
):
XOXO.

1 bamboo!

i met up with a friend that i have neglected for a long time yesterday.
a friend whom i respect and love dearly.
we used to hang out everyday, spending nights talking endlessly about life, but we are like strangers now, barely meeting at all.
im glad the meetup happened, really.

sometimes in life we tend to neglect some people, or some stuffs,
but as long we remember and initiate,
its never too late.
put in effort and you're bound to feel glad with your decision.

i feel accomplished yesterday.
i managed to check against many items on my to-do list, even though i lost in mahjong but i've settled many other stuffs, so okay, nvm!

and......
i had a great morning today!
i woke up feeling energetic and i didnt have to drive myself to school and back home!
dad sent me and jaesen brought me back,
feeling lucky today,
casino tonight.
HAHAHA.


but of course,
the day would be perfect with smoked salmon sandwich,
white bread, cheese, lightly salted butter, NO lettuce, NO tomatoes, 2 slices of cucumbers.
HAHAHA.
looks like i've gotta head down to cold storage and make one myself!

ohoh,
bring me a hoegaarden as well!
HAHA.


okayyyyyyyyy,
got to run!

hurryhurry.

boy,

im so glad that karen started doing her blogshop biz after the long CNY break!
brings me joy whenever i get extra income plus new clothes!
people!
please support karen's new collection at http://www.cloveavenue.livejournal.com/!
many items are selling fast already!
here's a preview of whats in there.

am looking at the photos i took in bkk, i want to go back there right now!

(:

okay gonna go for class in abit!

mid terms in the afternoon,

i guess i need the luck!

bye!

lessons.

you never learn,
do you?

because honesty IS the best policy.
it was,
it is,
and it will always be.

im not blind,
neither am i dumb.